Make it stop...

[jay]

Euw... I've been really down on myself over the past few days. (shakes head) It's been a constant energy overhead to nip the self-negative tapes and self-blame, like an unpleasant song that just won't leave one's head after trying to eradicate it for the 89th time. And I've slipped several times. Really, I'm not an inherently worthless, undesirable, unlikable person (!)... argh. An ongoing internal battle with myself, these past few days.

[Note: this is not fishing, I'm just venting here out of frustration with myself.]