You're welcome to go on as long as you like, and in any case it's interesting. As well as gives more details about who you are, what makes you happy, and your coping strategies... that's all useful. Thanks for sharing.

And I know enough to agree fervently that more information is good. Imagined problems are most often worse than the real ones. Although I understand stumbling sometimes while trying to help others, hopefully your situation will improve soon. And if all else fails, I'm happy to help support the logistics.

It strikes me that I don't have much of a sense that I can defend myself, physically -- I was beaten-up frequently in school, a target for abuse. Sometimes it feels like I have to bristle a bit more than is necessary, to scare away would-be predators because I feel helpless in an actual fight.