Struggling a bit

[jay]

Thanks for your collective support yesterday :-). I went home and crashed after dinner, sleeping 10 hours. Leaving the dishes undone, sigh. Two of three relationships have felt shaky over the past week, and I've been struggling to not obsess or lose focus altogether.

It doesn't help that I'm also dealing with weight issues -- over the past three trips, I've gained 11 lbs. Lack of exercise and too much travel have been prime culprits. But (body image) just looking at myself is depressing... my clothes are tight, and I'm now 23 lbs over my actuarial ideal weight. And (health) my blood pressure, which closely tracks my weight, is up to its highest level ever -- 140/95. I have a lot of work to do.

This morning... 7:30am and I've already had my first call from JL, and I'm busy working from home.

Comments

[brian1789.livejournal.com]

Means that if I can't get it done at work, I have to bring it home (like last night). Or over weekends... no one tells me to do these things, I'm effectively my own boss.

*hug* much appreciated. And thanks.

[geekchick]

If you routinely have to put in 10 hour days, then something is seriously wrong. I see that you've admitted to being overcommitted at work, which I'd have guessed even without your confirmation. *points* What purpletigron said.

[brian1789.livejournal.com]

It's also that I like my work... and I'm responsible for things. No one is telling me to work X hours, only to produce results. Thanks for the feedback... another issue is that after housework and bills are done, and the kids are to bed, there's nothing much to do at home. Taking on another space project seems preferable...

[geekchick]

No one is telling me to work X hours, only to produce results.

Okay, but if in the process of "producing results" you're finding that there's very little time left in your life for anything else, like exercise or spending anything approaching quality time with your family, then IMO something needs to be rearranged. Perhaps you need to farm out some of the tasks on your plate or to hire more staff to give yourself some time to do other things as well?

after housework and bills are done, and the kids are to bed, there's nothing much to do at home.

You could read a book, take up a hobby, do some of the exercise you say you're missing, spend time talking with patgreene...I won't suggest watching movies since I already know how you feel about that one. ;)

[brian1789.livejournal.com]

You're right... I need to delegate, to farm out more tasks. I need clerical support, so I'm not spending half my time photocopying and filing and word processing. I need to get a good voice-recognition program... or else spend 3 months learning to touch-type.

I've stopped pleasure reading, over the past year. Nothing appeals to me anymore... my favorite authors from the 80s and 90s have gone into semi-retirement, and few new authors seem worthwhile.

I used to fly airplanes (expensive), homebrew (couldn't get rid of it quickly enough), and garden (doesn't work at night)... all dropped over the past few years. I may take up dancing again, because it covers the "exercise" and "social" needs at the same time.