Struggling a bit

[jay]

Thanks for your collective support yesterday :-). I went home and crashed after dinner, sleeping 10 hours. Leaving the dishes undone, sigh. Two of three relationships have felt shaky over the past week, and I've been struggling to not obsess or lose focus altogether.

It doesn't help that I'm also dealing with weight issues -- over the past three trips, I've gained 11 lbs. Lack of exercise and too much travel have been prime culprits. But (body image) just looking at myself is depressing... my clothes are tight, and I'm now 23 lbs over my actuarial ideal weight. And (health) my blood pressure, which closely tracks my weight, is up to its highest level ever -- 140/95. I have a lot of work to do.

This morning... 7:30am and I've already had my first call from JL, and I'm busy working from home.

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[brian1789.livejournal.com]

You're right... I need to delegate, to farm out more tasks. I need clerical support, so I'm not spending half my time photocopying and filing and word processing. I need to get a good voice-recognition program... or else spend 3 months learning to touch-type.

I've stopped pleasure reading, over the past year. Nothing appeals to me anymore... my favorite authors from the 80s and 90s have gone into semi-retirement, and few new authors seem worthwhile.

I used to fly airplanes (expensive), homebrew (couldn't get rid of it quickly enough), and garden (doesn't work at night)... all dropped over the past few years. I may take up dancing again, because it covers the "exercise" and "social" needs at the same time.