heads-up

I am not in a very good state emotionally, due to a variety of reasons... things falling apart here at home, my father's ongoing illness, only one of nine proposals selected at work, social failures and the shaky status of most of my relationships. It is hard to see anything positive looming. This is a heads-up and advance apology if I'm overly whiny, depressed, self-pitying, envious of socially-favored friends, tense with suppressed/controlled emotion, or reverting to bad old self-deprecation. Don't pay attention to it, I'm just not well. And I may not ask very well, for awhile... when feeling worthless it is hard to justify bothering someone else.