Apologies

I've been generally whiny and cranky this week. There are extenuating circumstances -- the resurfacing emotions from the abuse discussion last week left me feeling like I was back there 20 years ago again, feeling isolated and worthless and blaming myself and others. And I was simultaneously trying to both cover patgreene's job and work overtime at my own, getting harangued by JL and others while trying to readjust to being back in civilization.

But... that's all my problem. Doesn't justify snarkiness or rude behaviors on my part. Or self-bashing, either. Especially since if I'd just asked for help early on, I think I could have caught myself... after therapy yesterday, and then talking things through today with several people (thanks to dawnd, purplerabbit and geekchick!) I have a better grip on things and feel manifestly better. Should have reached out sooner... one slightly bright side is that this kind of headspace used to be the week-by-week default for me, rather than a bad week.

Anyway, I'm sorry (to those affected) for generally being a pain in the backside this week... (slight grimace).

grr...

After I finally got to bed at 3am, was woken at 7am by JL calling... although patgreene picked up the phone first and chewed him out (wry grin).

Pat was worried about her 74-year-old mom, who lives in St. Petersburg, FL (right in the projected path of a hurricane, today).

Well, in the shower and off to work...