sigh... a social trap

I've been emotionally fragile, even occasionally prone to a few tears since last weekend... so perhaps going to a large social gathering wasn't such a good idea tonight. But James wanted to see A...

I found myself in the trap tonight whereby I feel like no one really likes me or cares that I'm there, so I'm too afraid of rejection to approach anyone, which gives others the impression that I want to be left alone when in reality I need a few hugs or a shoulder. Instead, others heed the apparent "stay-away" vibes and then I feel even more unliked and uninteresting. Rinse. lather, repeat. Sigh. These are my feelings, no one else is responsible for them, but it still makes for a difficult evening.