I'm working on it, slowly. As a kid, any time I appeared to display openly any self-esteem, I got beaten up by schoolyard bullies. Or mocked and humiliated, later on. So I learned to show the world a self-effacing facade, especially when I felt threatened in some way. And then had to be satisfied with blowing the grade curve, quietly, for revenge.
It has taken years to let out this much... but inside, I know my own worth. Damn straight. ;-)
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Date: 2004-05-01 06:44 am (UTC)It has taken years to let out this much... but inside, I know my own worth. Damn straight. ;-)