one step forward, one back

[jay]

I'm self-peeved, after yesterday... not because of work (got four proposal abstracts done and sent off) or home (Kevin's Little League, then two diffferent school Open House nights in sequence (saw Kevin's art exhibit and David's science fair project))... but I backslid in a social setting. Did not ask well, was awash in personal body-image issues, was timid and hesitant, shrank into a fetal position in a hot tub to avoid accidentally brushing against anyone (caretaking everyone there...). I don't know why I feel so... untouchable, or unworthy of affection at the moment. But I'm annoyed at myself -- the week had been going very well, otherwise. Must just try again.

Comments

[who-is-she.livejournal.com]

progress has it's ups and downs.
You are ok.
You are totally fine.
You are aware of what happened, and you are assessing what you need to think about, change, consider. That is all good.

I'll be intrigued to hear what you find out when you think more about what was going on for you, why you shrank away.

I mean.. sometimes we shrink away becuase we are truly not feeling comfortable or safe with the situation. You can listen to your gut, and extend yourself accordingly.

Be gentle with yourself... that would be my wish for you.
(hugs)

[p3aches.livejournal.com]

Lots of hugs. Sometimes change feels uncomfortable. small steps, and small time periods where you are more who you want to be and you will eventually be that person more of the time.