Mixed reactions

[jay]

Today usually provokes a mixed response... I'm happy to see the expressions of pride and community and love and the free expression of these. While at the same time, at a personal level reminding me that I'm marginal, an outsider. Too mundane to be at a Pride parade, too weird to be welcomed enthusiastically in parent groups or at church... not fitting well anywhere, really.

I hope that my many participating friends have a beautiful day marching or watching, as well as those up at the Loving More conference at Harbin. For me, I'll be at home working on rewiring electrical circuits and fixtures...

Comments

[mactavish.livejournal.com]

I think your feeling like a pretender or a poser, your feeling not-included, is the crux if it. This isn't about whether you are (you wouldn't have been) but about how you feel. That's different, and there's not much about that anyone but you can do. I'm glad you're on the path toward moving the locus of control inward.

[brian1789.livejournal.com]

Right. Whether I would have been actually marginal or an outsider there today is almost irrelevant... the issue for me is that I stay away because I feel marginalized.

[trinker.livejournal.com]

I think the big question is "why do you want to be there?" If you have reasons of your own for wanting to attend, is it important whether you were personally invited or not?