Over three hours...

[jay]

Staggering out of couples counselling... started a bit after 10pm, out at 1:20am. Not particularly productive, we rehashed old boundary issues, old OSO issues and then talked about the upcoming trip. Worked out mutual strategies to correct things between us on the road... we'll see how they work in practice.

But I was just rambling at the end, and so was patgreene... we wound up discussing child-discipline tactics at 12:30am. Useful, at some level, but it didn't have to happen *then*. And going past the one hour that insurance covers... there were better ways to spend $250, I think. Feh.

Home at 2am. I was wound up and couldn't sleep until nearly 4am. Pat crashed but needs more sleep than I do, so I got up and relieved her this morning and got the kids off to school.

One note, though... I need to feel like I'm worthy of having my needs met. Of asking without feeling like an imposition or burden, when I'm plainly not anyone's ongoing dependency. And that I deserve partners and friends who appreciate me as I am, without having to try to project carefully-crafted versions of myself to meet their perceived desires and needs.

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worth it

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I don't know how the therapy session connects to your last paragraph, but my sense is that anything that helps get you to that point is worth the effort and the money.

thanks for taking some bold steps with me.