jay | wrestling

Good things: A day yesterday when I enjoyed the affections of three sweeties, spread over a continent. Room-service breakfast with

geekchick, lunch at the Malt Shop on W. 51st St in Minneapolis with Nancy, and pancakes and evening snuggles at home with

patgreene. (grin)

Bad things: Being mislead and made to check my carry-on by Northwest Airlines... and wrestling with general grumpiness heading into this weekend. Having to actively resist urges to find ways to reject others to match how I feel rejected by them. Trying to let pass by moments of feeling victimized or like bomb-throwing. I wish that my social networks didn't keep dishing out inputs and situations that feel emotionally unsafe for me. I don't feel heard or valued when this keeps happening over and over. So, lots of energy is currently going into letting myself have and acknowledge various negative feelings while trying to not *act* on them... and reminding myself that just because I feel something doesn't mean it reflects reality.