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post-field crash
I may as well own up to it... I've been not just stressed, but fighting depression on-and-off for a few days. Not terribly sociable, and I've had my selfish and antisocially insular moments. I need to apologize to several people I've hurt in the meanwhile.
Reasons? I don't know... every time in the past few years that I return to mundane reality at home after a long trip testing something in a faraway place, I seem to get cranky and depressed about 3-5 days afterward. That, plus this time I received three different rejections of various social sorts from individuals, clustered in the same 5 days after I returned from the field, giving me ample fodder to beat up on myself. And take it out on those nearer and dearer... sigh. My bad.
Reasons? I don't know... every time in the past few years that I return to mundane reality at home after a long trip testing something in a faraway place, I seem to get cranky and depressed about 3-5 days afterward. That, plus this time I received three different rejections of various social sorts from individuals, clustered in the same 5 days after I returned from the field, giving me ample fodder to beat up on myself. And take it out on those nearer and dearer... sigh. My bad.
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2003... http://www.livejournal.com/community/polyamory/631373.html
2002... http://www.livejournal.com/users/brian1789/58343.html
You actually were responsible for single-handedly lifting me out of it, in 2002 when I was in DC in early August ;).
I think that I was more outwardly-directed than last year or 2002, in part because I simply have more of a community and outside contacts now... in 2003, I let myself say what I actually thought, which is dangerous on a public board in a crashed state (wry grin).
I should take some vacation days -- I have 4 weeks, plus comp time -- but scarcely time, only a week between trips.
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It's really unfortunate that all your long stretches of travel happen so close together, although I know there's not much you could've done to change the scheduling. If you can swing it, i think you should take a few days off work after you get back from Japan and give yourself some time to ease back into things here; maybe it will help to not have to worry about dealing with all the accumulated work issues on top of trying to get used to being back at home.