Venting

[jay]

A couple of days ago, I looked at a graph, had a half-hour of angst over some implications, vented in an LJ entry, shook it off and went on to work, focussed on other things. I nearly disabled comments... instead, spent most of my energy over the past two days replying to comments and working out the aftereffects with various partners.

A meta-level comment: I periodically see something that I perceive as negatively reflecting on myself, become depressed, and then rebound. The "down" period is usually minutes-to-hours... I don't generally sit alone at home bashing myself. And I know that I'm not worthless, or completely without some virtues... whatever I may feel when I'm in one of those self-critical periods.

Posting during those periods, however, has led to unnecessary drama on several occasions (either here or on alt.poly) over the past five years. I think I should begin disabling comments when I'm venting at myself...

Comments

[geekchick]

I second the recommendation about perhaps making those entries private. I hope our phone conversation last night helped explain at least a little about why some of us react the way we do to those kinds of statements.

Love you.

[brian1789.livejournal.com]

love you, lil' canteloupe... I'm hard-headed, but slowly get a few things.

[geekchick]

Peach...I think I'll dye my hair peach... ;)

FWIW, I suggested that maybe private entries would be a way to approach the issue because I thought that the writing it out was the important thing for you. I make private posts when I'm still working things out in my own head and don't want to let out half-organized thoughts that might not reflect what it is I'm really feeling (like indyansel talked about). Of course none of us is trying to tell you what and how you should post, it was just a suggestion about how you might minimize the responses you were talking about.

Love you too.