Trepidation

[jay]

Time to leave with the kids for the family church service... I'm approaching this with some trepidation, after the past week's events. But then, I'm used to feeling like a tolerated stranger there. This in-between feeling is new and scary for patgreene, who really would rather just stay home. But we will need to grit our teeth and go, despite feeling not welcomed... to do otherwise would be to concede some kind of guilt in others' eyes. Communion with K officiating should be interesting... sigh. I really feel for Pat... she's grieving for loss of community. I'm used to being an outsider...

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[therealjae.livejournal.com]

I left my church after something like that happened to me, and I never looked back. I'm not saying that this is what you should do, but sometimes "conceding guilt" is better than gritting your teeth through something week after week.

-J

[airshipjones.livejournal.com]

I wish you well. I hope that you find a solution that works for you both.

[frankenboob.livejournal.com]

I was glad to see both you and Pat this morning. I'll write (or talk to you) more about this later... but I too feel trepidation about being there. A variety of reasons... but one aspect is that the church is so different than it was when we started going there. As you pointed out today, there were a handful of kids a decade ago... and now there is a *kid* service that is busting at the seams. When I went back to church this last time, I realized that the people I didn't know by far outnumbered the people I did. The church is changing at many levels. The people there aren't always good with communication or wise about the choices they make... but it makes them human. And it helps me feel that I too have a place amongst them... as we're all (supposedly) working with the same purpose & with the same guidebook & we're all *equal* in the eyes of God. By golly, if they need us there to remind them of those things from time to time, it behooves us to be there. (All this being said, if it still sucks in a year, I'll see you at St. Judes.) :) I'm thankful for the part of the body you offer to our community. I pray, for us all, that things improve.

[who-is-she.livejournal.com]

let me know how it goes.
I'm sorry I wasn't around this morning to talk......