heads-up

[jay]

I am not in a very good state emotionally, due to a variety of reasons... things falling apart here at home, my father's ongoing illness, only one of nine proposals selected at work, social failures and the shaky status of most of my relationships. It is hard to see anything positive looming. This is a heads-up and advance apology if I'm overly whiny, depressed, self-pitying, envious of socially-favored friends, tense with suppressed/controlled emotion, or reverting to bad old self-deprecation. Don't pay attention to it, I'm just not well. And I may not ask very well, for awhile... when feeling worthless it is hard to justify bothering someone else.

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Knowing we are worth while.

[p3aches.livejournal.com]

Brian, some times the knowing we are worthwhile comes from the asking for what we want or feel we need. Some of what you have written in your recent Lj posts suggests to me that you want and need your friends to reach out. Hence last night.

Additionally you asked me for what you needed when I saw you on Thurs. I see this asking for what you needed as growth and progress even while in pain. Last night you asked for what needed again and it was very easy for me to know how to give it to you because you asked for it in a very clear way. I didn’t have to guess what you needed or wanted. Many hugs T

Re: Knowing we are worth while.

[brian1789.livejournal.com]

Reaching out Sunday night was helpful -- it helped me jumpstart myself, emotionally. Thanks for listening to me rant on... (hug)