sigh... a social trap

[jay]

I've been emotionally fragile, even occasionally prone to a few tears since last weekend... so perhaps going to a large social gathering wasn't such a good idea tonight. But James wanted to see A...

I found myself in the trap tonight whereby I feel like no one really likes me or cares that I'm there, so I'm too afraid of rejection to approach anyone, which gives others the impression that I want to be left alone when in reality I need a few hugs or a shoulder. Instead, others heed the apparent "stay-away" vibes and then I feel even more unliked and uninteresting. Rinse. lather, repeat. Sigh. These are my feelings, no one else is responsible for them, but it still makes for a difficult evening.

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[elissaann.livejournal.com]

Yes, sometimes I get those feelings. If nobody sits next to me at shul, I think it's because nobody likes me. But I could have sat next to somebody myself!

The "people are hoping" is recognition that other people might be wanting attention and not doing anything to get it.

I walked over to that guy for three reasons:
1. I had just been asked for a date, so my confidence was pretty high.
2. I'm a member, so in a way, that made me a "host", and remembering that always gives me "ownership".
3. The guy looked like he would welcome some company.