post-field crash

[jay]

I may as well own up to it... I've been not just stressed, but fighting depression on-and-off for a few days. Not terribly sociable, and I've had my selfish and antisocially insular moments. I need to apologize to several people I've hurt in the meanwhile.

Reasons? I don't know... every time in the past few years that I return to mundane reality at home after a long trip testing something in a faraway place, I seem to get cranky and depressed about 3-5 days afterward. That, plus this time I received three different rejections of various social sorts from individuals, clustered in the same 5 days after I returned from the field, giving me ample fodder to beat up on myself. And take it out on those nearer and dearer... sigh. My bad.

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[elissaann.livejournal.com]

Hugs.

I get depressed after a big project is over, too. It feels like it could be either physical exhaustion or emotional depression, but I can't tell the difference at a time like that. I often feel antisocial, and I need time to myself.

Julia Cameron writes about ending a project in a way that resonates with me:

"As we try to land back in our own life, we may shoot past our real size and feel like someone very small. This is why astronauts undergo debriefing..." (Walking in this World, p. 258).


Did you undergo debriefing?

[brian1789.livejournal.com]

Only an online questionnaire about who I'd contacted while outside of the US...