An off weekend

[jay]

In more ways than one... I feel down, isolated, bored, unloved, mostly useless. Like I have a talent for upsetting others, I've managed it with two different people today and it is only lunchtime. And things were suboptimal at W&S for me, with some tension and lots of processing with a couple of people. At least the brandy was appreciated.

These feelings aren't rational and will probably pass, but right now I'm not very good company. Which is only exacerbating the above.

[Update: I went ice skating this afternoon with Kevin, and feel much better. Endorphins and a good practice session helped. :) ]

Comments

[dawnd.livejournal.com]

Sorry things weren't going well. Glad to hear they've improved, though. Taking some alone time is a good plan under these circumstances. Relax, recharge, and come back better to interact with.

And yes, you get to consider what plans you would LIKE to make on occasion. YOU were the one who wanted sushi the other night, so we went there. You seemed to survive actually being the one to choose the direction for once. ;^)

(hug)

[brian1789.livejournal.com]

Give me a goal or objective -- take the next hill, etc -- and I have no trouble choosing the direction or formulating plans. Even being relentless and outspoken.

My problem has been in validating to myself that it is OK to set a goal based purely on what *I* want or need, rather than what serves best my tribe, organization, or greater ideas. But I've made progress... and the sushi was just what I wanted. :)