An apology...
Sep. 10th, 2002 02:33 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jayOver the past three or four weeks, as this morning's surgery approached, my underlying stress and worry about Pat have grown... I'm kind of frightened about it, especially after her dad died after knee-replacement surgery, 5 years ago.
But I have felt that I had to be strong and calming and reassuring around her and the kids. So all of my pent-up fear and anxiety has been channeled elsewhere, over the past month. Largely into general snippiness and looking to pick fights... which hasn't been fun for those persons nearby. Two different sweeties have suffered in particular, as have a couple of others. This wasn't fair to them.
Regardless of today's outcome, I owe several people an apology for "kicking the cat" where they are concerned. I'm sorry.
But I have felt that I had to be strong and calming and reassuring around her and the kids. So all of my pent-up fear and anxiety has been channeled elsewhere, over the past month. Largely into general snippiness and looking to pick fights... which hasn't been fun for those persons nearby. Two different sweeties have suffered in particular, as have a couple of others. This wasn't fair to them.
Regardless of today's outcome, I owe several people an apology for "kicking the cat" where they are concerned. I'm sorry.
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appologys
Date: 2002-09-10 08:39 am (UTC)FEAR = False Evidense Appearing Real. You are a science guy so you look for evidence to support your theory, in this case there is none. So your mind creates what it thinks will happen based on pats family history, however there is not real evidence this will happen for pat at least at this moment. hang in there. If possible be in the present. And know you have folks around you to reach out to. Hugs and courage T