Whine, moan

[jay]

Calls to friends go unreturned, three people haven't replied to e-mails, my a.p. posts are largely ignored (well, that's typical), two LDRs are too busy to talk, and my closest local friend dumped me for lunch tomorrow in favor of a potential romantic interest. I tell myself that I should be patient, that it's just a busy time of year... oh, and my annual performance review is tomorrow. After I blew off an all-hands meeting today because couples-counselling with Pat ran late... sigh. I feel cut off and isolated, both at home, at work and in my social life.

Positives... well, David's neurological screening turned up nothing, this afternoon. And I had a very nice lunch at an Indian resturant with a different local friend. And the "check engine" light has disappeared after I fed the car 2 bottles of fuel-line cleaner.

Comments

[elynne.livejournal.com]

I've been sort of isolating myself - bang bang, Maxwell's silver hammer labled "Depression" came down on my head, ow. Of course, when I isolate myself because I'm depressed, people respond by leaving me alone, thinking that's what I want... and then I get more depressed because nobody's payint attention to me and nobody cares. :P At least now I can stand outside the cycle and see it happening, which takes a lot of power away from it. I still haven't quite gotten out of it, though. Bang bang...

[brian1789.livejournal.com]

Ouch (hammers hurt! Especially silver ones). And depression can be hard to just slog through... not to mention the negative-feedback cycle. Anger can play the same trick -- someone is angry, but no one wants to get close to them (and help them release some of their anger) because that person is irascible and grumpy. Feeling isolated and ignored, they just get grumpier.

Recognizing these processes helps, agreed... I've watched Pat deal with bad bouts of depression and I've wrestled with anger and resentment. Hope you're gliding out of the hole by now (hug). And thanks...