Less than 48 hours

[jay]

Until an event that is typically more stressful than an annual performance evaluation... a local poly pool party with 50-100 attendees. Lacking a local date, I've almost always gone alone... and sometimes foundered, without a safety-person there for emotional support. This time, there will also be a few people there that are likely to quietly mock me, whom I'll be avoiding. If it weren't the largest local community event, and I wasn't also starved for higher-energy social space, I might skip it. But I won't... wish me luck.

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[brian1789.livejournal.com]

Thanks! I feel like I'm a bit better-prepared emotionally nowadays than I was a couple of years ago. And floating alone and lonely among throngs is less likely than it once was, I think. But I'm still reluctant to approach strangers and introduce myself, I'll be arriving halfway through the party and I'll be arriving and leaving alone...

If I were there.. I'd hang out with you!

Awww... thanks. The one time we were introduced in person, you were the co-hostess of this party, so I'm honored. Although you'd be, um, busy if you were actually at a party down here, I suspect.

don't let your imagination go too wild on that idea

If I'm lucky, that group and I won't interact and will scarcely notice each other.