Struggling a bit

[jay]

Thanks for your collective support yesterday :-). I went home and crashed after dinner, sleeping 10 hours. Leaving the dishes undone, sigh. Two of three relationships have felt shaky over the past week, and I've been struggling to not obsess or lose focus altogether.

It doesn't help that I'm also dealing with weight issues -- over the past three trips, I've gained 11 lbs. Lack of exercise and too much travel have been prime culprits. But (body image) just looking at myself is depressing... my clothes are tight, and I'm now 23 lbs over my actuarial ideal weight. And (health) my blood pressure, which closely tracks my weight, is up to its highest level ever -- 140/95. I have a lot of work to do.

This morning... 7:30am and I've already had my first call from JL, and I'm busy working from home.

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[brian1789.livejournal.com]

You know first-hand... and thanks.

Then there are people to whom I've promised I will take good care of myself

Ah... but there aren't any. I dodge those requests :-). I make work-related promises... or relationship promises... but avoid promising anything internal to just me. So I'm not violating anything by running myself down in order to meet other commitments.

enter negotiations to re-structure your commitments until you only have 100% of your time full

You're right. I need to negotiate, to delegate, to lower my workload. Maybe not all the way down to 100% (then I'd have periods at 70-80%) but to not much over nominal full-time.

Unfortunately, the two projects which have the least support are also the most fun...