return to therapy

[jay]

After a one-month absence. A 2.5-hour session... <lj user = "patgreene> was just back from her trip and faded. Room for cautious optimism... we pretty much have figured out what's underlying the repeated upsets between Pat and I, and have a general agreement on a direction to proceed. It will require both Pat and I to look out for each other's interest as well as our own, and to reach consensus rather than just deciding things unilaterally. Otherwise... a bit to my surprise, I discovered that much of my crankiness and feelings of worthlessness and depression appear to be tied to the sexual abuse meme, and feelings raised back to the surface by my reply to my parents a couple of days ago. I've needed help over the past couple of days, but have been afraid to ask for it.

Comments

Re: sexual abuse meme fallout

[scarlet1.livejournal.com]

I don't understand. Response to what? Did you send us a letter? I did respond to your "coming out with the information of the abuse", via e-mail. I am devastated by what happened to you and am so very sorry I wasn't a better parent. I just really didn't have any idea as to the extent of the physical abuse and absolutely none as to the sexual abuse. I think you know how much we love you and as parents even today, want to protect you. Obviously we failed in the past. But, please know that whatever I can do now to support you in any way I'm eager to try to amend a little the wrongs of the past. I love you and hold you as precious to me. You as must know I would give anything to undo the past for you. But I can not. I will have to live with my failure as a parent and the hurt I have caused you. As a parent yourself, you must realize how painful that is to me, as I always thought I had done a good job. I want to help you. Please let me know what I can do to help you mend the hurt.