*crash*

[jay]

Well, my generally-good mood lately had to end sometime... in this case, I managed to have both my jealousy and exclusion buttons pressed in a 5-minute period at the beginning of a gathering, and I spent most of the rest of the evening away by myself sulking (and dozing) outdoors. Sigh. My issues, and not constructive. patgreene actually thought I was upset at her... not so.

The gathering itself was overcrowded, and I had to sit out in the hallway... feeling peripheral and unimportant and unwanted. Getting there sooner would have helped, but we had to feed our kids and it is a long drive...

Time to pack now, I have a 5am pickup....

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[brian1789.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the suggestions :). Granted, at a discussion group some of these aren't applicable (it wasn't *that* kind of discussion group (giggle))... and I knew at least a third of the people there, several with whom I feel very close (ordinarily...). But getting there earlier and helping in setup would have at least given me early dibs on a place to sit. (nods)