An off weekend

[jay]

In more ways than one... I feel down, isolated, bored, unloved, mostly useless. Like I have a talent for upsetting others, I've managed it with two different people today and it is only lunchtime. And things were suboptimal at W&S for me, with some tension and lots of processing with a couple of people. At least the brandy was appreciated.

These feelings aren't rational and will probably pass, but right now I'm not very good company. Which is only exacerbating the above.

[Update: I went ice skating this afternoon with Kevin, and feel much better. Endorphins and a good practice session helped. :) ]

Comments

[brian1789.livejournal.com]

Hm. Sounds like I'd better keep quiet about those things, if it is proving disquieting... I might have one to three down days a month, typically.

[pure-agnostic.livejournal.com]

No need to keep quiet for my sake. You are not disturbing me. I was asking out of empathy for you. I was concerned that maybe you have depression. I too have a few down days per month - mostly when I neglect myself (e.g. - not enough sleep, not enough good food, overworked, people stress, etc...).

Actually, I'm glad you do let us know when you have down days. Some folks never communicate sad or angry feelings to others, leading lives of quiet melancholy right up to when they die. I much more worried about friends who don't say when they are feeling down.

Besides seeing you let others know about your down days, I also see many friends wanting to cheer you up. You are blessed to have so many kind and attentive friends. The opposite scares me - a person who feels depressed, requests help from others, and receives no support is somebody I would truly worry about.

[brian1789.livejournal.com]

I am very blessed with my friends, yes. :)

[cyan-blue.livejournal.com]

No need to keep it quiet... it's useful for those of us who love you to know where you're at emotionally. And these days you express the down moods in such a way that makes it clear that you know that they are temporary, and that's a good thing to hear.

I was actually surprised to read pure_agnostic's impression there, of your posting this kind of thing every few weeks - when I saw your post, one of my first thoughts was "Been a while since I heard you speak of feeling unloved..."

*hugs*