disengagement?
Aug. 9th, 2004 12:15 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
To withdraw from some local communities and circles, or not... that question seems pressing, right now. It could be self-defeating. But better to walk away than to stand around on various peripheries, feeling excluded and unwanted. Whining and fuming is unattractive and internally unhealthy, in the longer term. I suppose that I have to assess the likelihood of future non-peripheral participation vs. the emotional risks of waiting...
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Date: 2004-08-09 07:29 pm (UTC)*hugs*s
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Date: 2004-08-09 08:23 pm (UTC)You're still right up there, close to the top of my "Very Cool People I Know" list. :)
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Date: 2004-08-10 12:24 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-08-10 06:17 pm (UTC)I'm clearly an extrovert -- seeking crowds, gaining energy from gatherings -- I'm just really bad at socializing, I think. Something like that.
In local poly communities, I'm less integrated than others in part (IMO) because I've not dated anyone locally, just LDRs.
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Date: 2004-08-11 12:43 am (UTC)And, um, (cough).
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Date: 2004-08-11 01:12 am (UTC)(cough) speaking of LDRs...
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Date: 2004-08-11 01:19 am (UTC)And should I understand that 45 miles is an LDR while 129 is not?
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Date: 2004-08-11 01:37 am (UTC)45 miles is currently an LDR, functionally... 124 miles to Cloverdale is overtly an LDR. And while that person is connected to groups and people who are closer to me than 124 miles, she has not tried to integrate us. One of the reasons behind a past breakup there, actually. I don't do well if any partner of mine is connected in ways that don't welcome (or at least tolerate) me as well.
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Date: 2004-08-12 08:59 am (UTC)Something you need to understand about that party
Date: 2004-08-12 09:18 pm (UTC)That was not a slight against you. That was careful choosing for me to maintain security for myself and those attending with people we've engaged with before. Granted some may have attended such kinds of parties with you themselves but neither *I* nor *
I know you're on the Wine and Song list. If you're on our friends list, you can see it. I haven't seen you respond to coming to that party yet.
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Date: 2004-08-13 09:14 am (UTC)I will be out of town for the next W&S on Saturday, but plan on going to the next one when I'm here. Assuming that you guys are OK with that, of course... (wry grin).
Even if you aren't, which would be understandable, I've still got shattercones to get to you somehow, probably after the move. :)
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Date: 2004-08-10 02:36 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-08-10 05:20 pm (UTC)Lots of people came to my birthday party, for example, but won't make time for lunch with me -- outside the motivation of their *other* friends being present.
And we should definitely meet up again, hopefully before I go off to more field work in Spain next month...